After the Silence: Returning to New Zealand
By the time we were finishing our last week in March of 2020 in New Zealand, the news had begun to intrude upon the ordinary business of guiding. Every few days another country announced restrictions, international flights were being cancelled and there was growing uncertainty about how far the virus would spread. We were still doing what we had travelled there to do, taking clients fishing, watching the weather and moving between rivers, but conversations increasingly wandered towards what was happening elsewhere. It was difficult to know how seriously to take any of it. The restrictions being discussed seemed extraordinary at the time, and I suspect most of us assumed that whatever disruption lay ahead would be relatively short-lived.
We finished the season and returned to Australia. Within weeks, international travel had become almost impossible, and the prospect of returning to New Zealand the following summer disappeared. There were bookings to rearrange, clients to contact and plans that had to be abandoned or postponed. Initially, the conversations were largely about dates. Perhaps the following January would work. Perhaps the borders would reopen sooner than expected. There was little point making firm arrangements while the situation remained so uncertain, but neither did anyone particularly want to accept that an entire season might be lost.
Eventually one season became two, and then the absence began extending into a third summer. For a business that had been taking anglers to Southland since 2000, it was a peculiar interruption. We had become accustomed to spending a substantial part of every Australian summer across the Tasman. By late spring, preparations would normally be well underway. Guides would be organising equipment, clients would be discussing flights and accommodation, and the familiar conversations about river levels, summer weather and likely fishing conditions would begin. Without those preparations, the months seemed strangely open. There was still plenty of work in Australia, but a part of the year that had acquired its own established routine was missing.
The clients were in much the same position. Some had been travelling with us for years and knew the Southland rivers almost as well as we did. Others were preparing for their first visit and had spent months looking forward to fishing places they had previously known only through photographs and other people’s accounts. The uncertainty was especially difficult for those who had organised other parts of their lives around the trip. Leave had been arranged, flights booked and, in some cases, family travel planned around the fishing. We kept in touch, rearranged what we could and waited for circumstances to improve. After a while, even talking about the next season began to feel rather speculative.
When the opportunity finally came to return for the 2022–23 season, conditions in Australia provided another reason to head across early. Much of Victoria was dealing with the effects of significant flooding. The Goulburn and several of its tributaries were carrying heavy, discoloured water, and familiar stretches of river had become difficult or impossible to fish. Access tracks were damaged, sections of bank had disappeared and there was little certainty about when the main river would return to something resembling normal conditions. At the same time, reports from Southland suggested an unusually warm start to summer, with relatively stable rivers and excellent visibility.
We decided to go across before the main hosted season began and spend some time fishing for ourselves. It was an opportunity to look at the rivers, see how the country had changed during our absence and return to the routines we had followed for so many years. There was work to be done before clients began arriving, but it was also a chance to enjoy a few days without the responsibilities that normally accompany a full guiding schedule.
Our usual accommodation at Dunrobin was still undergoing renovations, so we began the trip based in Te Anau. That gave us convenient access to the Waiau, Eglinton and surrounding rivers, country I knew well but had not visited for several seasons. It was a slightly different arrangement from our usual one, although after so long away I doubt any of us was particularly concerned about where we were sleeping. We had rods, transport and a selection of rivers in good condition. That was enough to begin with.
There is a particular familiarity to fishing Southland that returns quickly once you are standing beside one of its rivers. The water is often clear enough that you can see individual stones across much of a run, although the surface reflection and the angle of the light can make the same piece of water almost impossible to read from another position. The banks are frequently open, with long stretches of grass, gravel and low vegetation offering little concealment. You become conscious of your outline against the sky and the way your movement is carried through the water. There are places where the first reasonable opportunity to cast comes only after several minutes spent deciding how to approach.
On our first days back, those habits returned almost without effort. We found ourselves walking slowly along the banks, looking into the likely water before approaching it, using the available light and adjusting our position whenever a reflection made the bottom difficult to see. A trout holding beneath an undercut bank might remain almost invisible until it shifted slightly into the current. Another would appear quite clearly against the pale gravel, only to disappear the moment a cloud passed overhead. After years of guiding this sort of water, much of the process becomes instinctive, but it was still a pleasure to find ourselves doing it again.
The fishing was good. We encountered brown trout holding in familiar positions, feeding beneath banks, moving through the shallower glides and occasionally rising to insects drifting along the surface. There were enough opportunities to remind us what we had missed, but not so many that the fish required little thought. We still had to work out the correct approach, choose the presentation and occasionally stand watching a fish for considerably longer than we spent casting to it. Some refused. Others moved confidently to the fly. After the uncertainties of the preceding years, there was something particularly satisfying about having our attention occupied by problems as familiar as those.
I was also reminded how physically different wade fishing in New Zealand feels from spending most of the year rowing drift boats on the Goulburn. On the larger river at home, much of my day is spent watching ahead, thinking about current, positioning the boat and deciding where clients should cast. In Southland, the process is slower and more deliberate. You may spend twenty minutes walking before locating a fish, then another twenty working out the best way to approach it. Once you begin fishing, you are responsible for your own position in the water and for every movement you make. There is no boat to reposition, and a poor decision can mean starting the search again somewhere farther upstream.
The Eglinton provided one of the more memorable incidents of that early visit, although it had nothing to do with trout. One afternoon we encountered a deer attempting to cross the river. Its hindquarters appeared badly injured, and from the way it moved we suspected it had suffered a serious pelvic injury. The crossing looked almost impossible. The animal was struggling to maintain its balance, and the current was strong enough that we expected it to lose its footing and be swept downstream.
Instead, it continued fighting its way across. We watched it struggle through the deeper water, sometimes appearing almost stationary against the current before managing another little piece of progress. There was nothing we could usefully do from where we stood. Eventually, against our expectations, it reached the opposite bank and disappeared into the grass. I can still picture the three of us watching that last part of the crossing, waiting to see whether it would manage to pull itself clear. We never knew what happened afterwards.
Incidents like that are part of spending so much time outdoors. You occasionally witness something that would otherwise pass entirely unnoticed, and there is no particular reason for it to fit comfortably into the day you had planned. We had gone to the Eglinton to fish. By the time we left, I remember the deer more clearly than any trout we encountered.
Some of the evenings around Te Anau were particularly enjoyable. We would have an early dinner, then head back towards the Waiau to fish through the last few hours of daylight. The river has always held considerable appeal for me, particularly when caddis and mayflies begin appearing over its slower water. Trout that have remained relatively inconspicuous during the day can begin rising steadily as the light fades, often in areas where their positions become difficult to determine once the surface loses its reflections.
There is an interesting adjustment required when fishing towards darkness. Early in the evening you can usually see enough of the water to identify the better feeding lanes and perhaps watch individual fish moving beneath the surface. Later, the rises become easier to hear than to see. The fly itself may be difficult to follow, and you begin relying more heavily on where you expect it to be, the behaviour of the leader and the faint disturbances made by feeding trout. When everything comes together, it can be exceptional fishing. You may find yourself reluctant to leave even after the light has deteriorated to the point where tying on another fly becomes an unpleasant exercise.
Not everybody wanted to spend the evening that way. Some preferred to finish at a sensible hour, have dinner and enjoy a drink rather than venture out again. I can understand that perfectly well. A full day walking rivers is tiring enough without adding another session after dark. But I have always enjoyed those late hours, particularly on rivers where the fishing can change so much during the final part of the day. Several of the people who chose to stay out spoke about those evenings long afterwards.
Eventually we returned south towards Dunrobin and the farmhouse that has served as our New Zealand base for so many seasons. The Aparima runs through the valley below the property, close enough that the river is part of the everyday view. It is a practical place from which to run the operation, but after more than two decades of returning, it has become considerably more familiar than most accommodation I use while travelling. There are roads I can drive almost without thinking, sections of river that bring particular clients to mind and stretches of farmland whose fences, gates and access points I have known for years.
I am conscious that most people encounter accommodation like this for only a week. They arrive, unpack, fish for six days and eventually leave with a collection of photographs and memories attached to the place. For those of us who return to work there season after season, the relationship develops differently. The same rooms, roads and surrounding hills become part of an annual routine. The rivers acquire histories that are not necessarily apparent to somebody visiting for the first time. I can walk into a particular run on the Aparima or Waiau and remember fishing it with someone years earlier, sometimes recalling the conversation more clearly than the trout we caught.
The return also meant seeing people we had not worked alongside for several summers. One of the pleasures of running the same operation over many years is that the relationships extend well beyond the formal business of arranging guiding days. Clients become familiar with the guides, guides get to know returning clients, and friendships develop among people who might otherwise never have met. Some anglers have been coming with us for so long that their arrival feels less like the beginning of a new booking than the continuation of an earlier visit.
By the time the main season began, the familiar activity had returned. Clients were arriving through Queenstown, vehicles were being loaded and guides were discussing weather and fishing conditions before heading out for the day. Decisions about which river to fish were once again occupying a considerable amount of our attention. There were lunches to organise, equipment to sort and the usual small problems that accompany moving several people between different catchments. None of it was particularly glamorous, and much of it would have seemed thoroughly ordinary in any season before 2020. After the long interruption, I was pleased to have those practical concerns back.
The fishing changed steadily as summer progressed. Southland had experienced a dry beginning to the season, and water levels continued falling through many of the rivers. By late summer, some were exceptionally low and clear. The famous waters, particularly the Mataura and Oreti, attracted considerable attention around the sections still producing consistent fishing. That was hardly surprising. Visiting anglers naturally gravitate towards the rivers they know by reputation, and modern fishing reports allow information about productive stretches to travel quickly.
There is still remarkable fishing available on those larger rivers, but conditions sometimes favour a less obvious approach. Over the years we have spent an enormous amount of time exploring the smaller streams that wind through the Southland farmland, including creeks that barely look substantial enough to hold trout when viewed from a passing vehicle. Some are little more than narrow channels between grassy banks. Others open into surprisingly long glides or deeper bends where the outside bank has been gradually undercut by the current.
In a dry season, that sort of water can be particularly interesting. The trout may be widely spaced, with long sections offering little reason for a fish to remain. A shallow run might lead into a bend with just enough depth, cover and current to provide a comfortable lie. Several hundred metres farther upstream, another piece of water may offer similar conditions. The challenge is not necessarily persuading fish to eat once you have found them. It is locating them without disturbing the few places where they are likely to be holding.
That becomes a different kind of fishing from covering long stretches of a river and expecting regular opportunities. You walk, stop, look and walk again. Sometimes the best view comes from well above the water. Sometimes a slight change in the sun’s angle reveals a trout that was invisible only moments earlier. The fish may be stationary against the current or moving slowly through a feeding lane, and a good deal of the work involves deciding whether it is actually feeding before attempting a cast.
Low, clear water exposes poor approaches very quickly. A careless step can send a fish disappearing beneath the nearest bank long before the angler has seen it. Standing too close to the river creates a silhouette that may be obvious to a trout several metres away. Even a well-presented fly can be refused if the fish has already become suspicious. By late summer, when the water has been low for weeks and the trout have encountered other anglers, the margin for error can become very small.
There were plenty of occasions when we had to spend considerable time on one fish. A trout might be feeding steadily but occupying a position that made a conventional upstream presentation difficult. Another would be holding beneath an undercut bank, where the fly needed to drift extremely close to the grass without catching it. Sometimes we had to wait for a fish to move into a more favourable position before casting at all. Those are the problems I particularly enjoy in New Zealand. They require the angler to understand the fish and the surrounding current rather than simply rely on a particular fly pattern.
I have never been particularly convinced by the idea that New Zealand trout are inherently more intelligent than trout elsewhere. Their environment often makes them more difficult to catch. Clear water, limited cover and the spacing of fish through long stretches of river place greater importance on finding the correct approach. A fish that sees you before you see it is unlikely to offer a fair opportunity, no matter how carefully you choose the fly afterwards. By contrast, a trout approached properly may respond with surprising confidence to a relatively straightforward imitation.
The smaller streams provided some of our most memorable fishing during that season, although they rarely attract the same attention as the famous rivers. There is something appealing about arriving beside water that appears almost insignificant, walking a short distance and discovering a substantial brown trout feeding beneath the grass. The surrounding landscape may be ordinary farmland, with fences, paddocks and distant hills rather than dramatic alpine scenery. Yet once you find a good fish and begin working out how to catch it, the size of the river becomes almost irrelevant.
That is one of the reasons I have always enjoyed guiding in Southland. The range of water is extraordinary, and there are often several different approaches available on the same day. Conditions on one river may be unsuitable while another, only a relatively short drive away, is fishing beautifully. A larger river may provide excellent afternoon hatches, while a small creek can offer a day spent stalking individual trout. There is considerable value in knowing those alternatives and being able to move between them without feeling obliged to fish a particular river simply because it has a famous name.
The work is not without its frustrations, of course. There are days when the wind makes spotting trout difficult, when a change in light removes the advantage of clear water or when an apparently promising stretch produces very little. Fish can refuse well-presented flies, and occasionally an entire morning is spent walking past water that should hold trout but does not appear to contain any. A guide still has to make decisions about when to persist and when to move. In some ways, those decisions are more important in New Zealand than almost anywhere else I have worked, simply because the fish can be so widely dispersed.
What I enjoy is watching clients gradually adapt to that style of fishing. On the first morning, some are inclined to cast at every likely piece of water, particularly if they have spent most of their fishing lives on rivers where trout are difficult to see. After a day or two, they begin looking more carefully. They understand why the guide sometimes walks past a beautiful run without making a cast, or why everyone may spend ten minutes staring into a small patch of water before deciding whether a dark shape is actually a fish. Their approach becomes quieter, and the time spent observing begins to occupy as much of the day as the casting.
There are also plenty of moments away from the water that become part of a season. Guides discussing the following day’s weather over breakfast. Wet waders drying outside the farmhouse. Someone sorting flies at the table while another looks through photographs from the afternoon. Clients returning tired but pleased after a long day walking. Dinner conversations that begin with an account of a particular fish and eventually wander towards families, work, travel and whatever else people have brought with them from home.
Those routines had been absent for several years, and it was good to have them back. I had missed the company of the guides and clients, but also the familiarity of the work itself. There is a particular satisfaction in organising a day properly, choosing suitable water and watching people return having enjoyed themselves. It does not require extraordinary fishing every time. Sometimes a difficult day that produces one memorable trout is enough. At other times the hatches are generous and everyone comes home with more stories than they can comfortably fit into dinner.
As the season progressed towards autumn, the days began shortening and the character of the valleys gradually changed. The mornings became cooler, the light arrived at a different angle and the urgency of midsummer began to fade. Some of the smaller rivers remained very low, while others continued providing good fishing through the final weeks. We were once again approaching the familiar task of finishing a New Zealand season, packing equipment, sorting accommodation and preparing to return to Australia.
That final period has always carried a mixture of satisfaction and reluctance. After several months away, there are things at home that need attention and people I am looking forward to seeing. At the same time, I know that certain rivers will remain in excellent condition after we leave, and there is usually at least one stretch of water I would have liked another day to explore. It has never been easy to arrive in Southland with enough time to fish everything that interests me.
The difference that year was the knowledge that we had returned at all. For several seasons, the normal assumption that we would be back the following summer had proved unreliable. We had postponed trips, watched the calendar move on and tried to make plans while having little control over whether they could proceed. By the end of the 2022–23 season, the familiar routines of guiding, travelling and hosting anglers in New Zealand were operating again. We could talk about the following summer with some confidence, something that had been missing for a surprisingly long time.
I still remember the injured deer in the Eglinton, the late evenings on the Waiau and several of the better trout we encountered on the smaller streams. I remember the pleasure of seeing familiar faces again and the satisfaction of watching clients settle back into fishing rivers they had missed for years. There were plenty of good days, along with the usual difficult ones, and enough variety to remind me that no two New Zealand seasons are ever particularly alike.
But when I think about that first return, I often come back to the drive towards Dunrobin. The farmhouse, the surrounding hills and the Aparima running through the valley below were all familiar. We had made the same journey so many times that there was little about it we needed to discover. After several summers away, I found myself looking across the river country again and thinking about the ordinary questions that would occupy us the following morning.
What would the weather do? Which rivers were in good condition? Where should we begin?
It was good to have those questions back.
Ant













